You know if you could have just been honest with your intentions and conveying them clearly to me early on then a whole lot could have been avoided. This year and even five years ago. Total and brutal honesty. With me and with yourself. Even at the risk of being weak and hurt and vulnerable. You are an architect of your own madness really. Spinning endless webs in which a lot of people are needlessly caught up and sacrificed simply because you can’t seem to face your own feelings and vulnerabilities. I know you have your own reasons and justifications as to why you’re not allowed to do certain things or say certain things to me. That there are strict parameters within which you’re allowed to operate. But deep down you must know that it’s all a lie. You can’t betray your own feelings without betraying a sense of who you are.
— Salisa to Anton, August 8th, 2025
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